Idi0tequ3
18-09-2006, 15:22
well to start it off let me jsut say this. i just moved to a new town, its not really filled with my kind of people. its kind of upscale/preppy/ everyone thinks theyre such hot shit. well anyway, i decided to celebrate the ending of the first full week of school by doing dxm. one thing lead to another, and it turns out i did way too many drugs this weekend. especialyl becuase im only 15 years old =0. alright so on friday night i went to my freind (lets just call him kac)s house and my other frieidn (lets just call him calt) weould be sleeping at his house as well. it was good too see my friends from my old town again, i really miss it there. well anyway, kac was already so ripped off his ass when i got there from smoking a bunch of fatties(didnt even wait for me ) haha so me and mike decided to walk down into town, hit up eckerd. he stole two bottles of zicam max. i decided that i wanted to trip complete balls this night as well so i went into shoprite(my local shopping center it turns out its not a common name so dont get confused lol). well so anway i successfully shoplifted two bottles of zicam nite(540 mgs of dxm hbr each.) as soon as i got back to his place, i drank one bottle of this shit. godamn this shit kicks in fast. let me jsut note that im a very expierenced dxm user. so anyway im starting to feel the dxm, for the first time in a while i can tell im going to trip very very hard. its always weird when your on dxm in an unformilar place, so this turned out to be a very strange trip for me. well anyway i got fucking so sick, felt like the worst shit ever. i projectile vomited a bunch of times into his cats litter box. after i puked i could feel the magic. ahh i was finally high after a hard weeks work of school. LOL it was pretty much just like an average high 2nd maybe low low third dxm trip. i was tripping hard. kacs room is designed very strangly, theres a mirror on the ground and all this other shit. let me just add that this kid lives in a complete fuckin s hit hole and lives with 2 cats and 2 dogs.
i would see them more than once throughout the whole night, i wondered what these strange creatures were. i realized that they were animals, and i wondered wtf they were doing in a house. i thought about how humans use animals to spot things that they cant, real primative thinking. haha
well anway, calt had to leave at about 12 oclock when iw as jsut peaking iw as upset to see him leave and i gave hima firm hand shake. i felt like i was never going to see him again for some reason. nothing really interesting happend the rest of the night, my friend passed out and i was tripping with all his fuckin pets. just looking at another life form was mind boggleing.
alright so let me get this story going, sorry its a long drug binge alot happened. haha next thing i know its morning, and kac is rolling a fattie. we went outside in the woods and smoked it , of course i was on the dex after glow so smoking anything was fucking incredable. so we just chilled around the house, and then kac todl me about how i had to leave at 11 becuase he was going to a skatepark. i dont skate board so i didnt wanna go anyway.
i was so fu cked up still i didnt wanna go home to my mom so i called up calt he siad he would be over to chill.
BUT there was a problem and he couldnt get a ride from anyone. so kac told me to walk down to the karate place where my freind(quint) was doing his thing. he told me to wait there and then maybe his dad could givem ea ride to mikes house. this was very confusing while this high and kind of tripping on the dex still.
i forgot to mention that kacs mom is perscibed klonopin. i was very excited to find 2 b ottles of this stuff in his computer room, so i secretly jacked 2 mgs of it. i took it instantly. this was a dumb idea becuase i would just be wondering around town, still tripping, stoned and now on kpins. well anyway when the kpins kicked in(of course its fast when you chew up them badboys.) we walked odwn the shoprite and kac was on his way to the skatepark. i was so fucked up to say the least at this point. so i walk down to karate, it was alot farther than i thought and i see my bud quint in there. i was happy to see him sinc ei dont have a cell phone. so i was chillen in front of the karate place, and thanks to fucking downers i pass out right in the front of the karate store while listenign to smashing pumpkins, i tripped tot hem the last night and found a new love for this band. they are so good on any drug. so anyway when i woke up, i didnt have any idea what the fuck was going on i woek up fucking so far away from kacs house. and i look int he karate store and its closed. oh fuck i thought. now im stranded in town with no ride to anywhere, too fucked up to even put a sentence together to ask the karate manager if he knew where quint was at.
so i wlaked up to the shoprite AGAIN iw as so tired. i didnt see quitn anywhere iw as hoping he would just be skating in front of the shoprite or some shit, but nobdoy was around at all.
so i walk down the karate place AGAIN and theres nobdoy there still. i was very confused and it felt liek my mind was fried. well anyway i ran into some kids who i didnt even know, (note that i looked so fucked up). i manage to ask this kid if i can use his cell phone. he said that i could only if i didnt steal it. you could tell he knew i was a scumbag. hahah
well anyway i call mike and he says that he cant get a ride to anywhere, and that quint is grounded and he cant go anywhere. yeah i know haha i got dicked over just becuase i blacked out on kpins. so, me being int he right state of mind to do anything i walk into the shoprite and jack another bottle of zicam nite. i think one of the employees saw me or soemthing, but everybody was watching me. well anyway, i got the fuck out of there feeling stupid for shoplifting again. i sat outside on a bench in front of the store like a fuckin bum. as my friend kac calls it "shad-o-meter" is very high on my part. i am carrying a backpack this whole time, and smoking cigs every chance i get. i got a shitload of dirty looks, but who gives a shit thats the great part about downers.
okay so now i see the kid with the cell phone again, ask him to use it again and he agrees. i was being so nice to these little douchebags who were being so annoying, they wanted to hang out with me and i luckily had the sense to say no becuase i had to get home, i had to get some godamn sleep finally. well my mom didnt answer her phone either, at this point i seriously thought the whole world was against me. i left her a message, and luckily about an hour later she showeed up. it was so funny, i felt like i was in forest fucking gump sitting on that bench, me beign all retarded ond rugs and people were talking to me saying shit like "what a nice day huh". just random ass people, i thought this was really creepy. i coudl still feel the dex and the kpins were still running strong, plus i was getting to be burnt the fuck out at about this time. so i get int he car with my mom, the first thing she says is something like "why are you just hanging out in front of shoprite?" "are you okay you look like your high!!!". you know the usual shit i get from my mom when im too high. i denied it and she accepted it i guess. we drove home, and i immedatly just pass out in my bed. finally i am fucking home at last. when i wake up, its 8 oclock pm.
god i love downers, my first instinct was to trip on dxm again for w/e reason. i still had two bottles of zicam, both put together was 1040 mgs. this was a very high dose for me. too h igh i would find out.i waited until my mom finalyl went to sleep at like 10 oclock.i downed both bottles, and chilled for a while when ic ame up. i didnt know if it was safe or not so i asked BL. all of a sudden i was on the high 3rd plateau. i was in the dxm land. it was different though, felt almost like opiates for a short amount of time. i think this was from the kpins from earlier. i was talking to my freinds on aim, or at least trying too. i couldnt reconize words, letters numbers, it was like i was incapable of thinking even.... well so i lay down in my bed, i cant remember ANYTHING from beyond this point.
i blacked out. i was on the 4th plateau dreaming. i cannot remmeber a single thing. i know i was on 4th becuase i cant remember shit, and i was incapable of moving. still i remmebr that it was very enjoyable, even though i knew how bad this combo was for me, especially a high dose of dxm two nights in a row.
when i got out of what whatever the fuck i was in, i definatly was on fourth for way too long. i guess the dxm that was still in my system greatly boosted the trip. so i wake up(or w.e you want to call it) im not sure if i was actually asleep(doubt it) or the amount of stress on my body from doing too many drugs just made me forget everything that happend. but im pretty sure that was just the gram of dxm.
now i do not rmember puking at all, but my garbage can was filled with it. godamn downers once again. let me just say that i probably wouldnt of tripped two nights in a row or even taken such a high dose of dex for me if i wasnt on downers. it was a weird ass weekend so far to say the least. but there was still
my huge concerta binge to add to the weekend.
alright so let me finish this long fuckin essay up here, thanks for reading it. so my mom takes me to her freinds house, and of course the first thing i look for in the house is drugs. i find theyre pill stash and what do you know theres a huge bottle of 54mg concerta. i took what i could get, i stole 5 of them i didnt have enough time to take anymore becuase my mom made me a play date with this kid graham. she was trying to get me to hang out with kids taht she knows dont do drugs. well first of all, let me just mention to you all that i am very very bad at handling any kind of upper. i know its only extended release methylphenidate but it had me fucking twackd out of my mind for the whole night. (this was last night but let me get back to more of the story LOl sorry for typing so much guys thanks once again for being interested in my story)
alright so this kid graham is a real ladies man he tells me call up some girls so we can hang out with them.i call up this little cutie luaren who is now my girlfreind. so we convinced grahams mom to drive us to brownes point, a park thats in my home town. so she drops us off at the a&p and once again im wandering around my home down on a dxm after glow. alright so anyway we met up with these two cuties and made out with them, nothing special but it made me happy. oh yeah and i forgot to mention how much a depressed teenager i am, but once i ddi that klonopin/dxm combination i was happy again. dxm really brightens up my life. i havent been just straight up happy since i moved to this town which i hate. well enough of my emo bitching. i bought some well deserved cigs at a gas station and i was suprised they sold it to me. i didnt even get carded haha. this is why i love jersey. alright so anyway grahams mom picks us both up,questions us about why we wreak like cigs. we talked our way out of it. let me just say that i talk my way out of way to many situations involving drugs. when i got home, i looked in the mirror. god fucking damnit i looked liek i was about to just drop dead. well, instead of leaving it at that and just going to bed (i had school the next day.) i remmeberd the 270 mgs of concerta i had in my pocket. i crudly crushed them up (jesus these things are a such a pain in the ass).
so i took 170 mgs at first, and then about an hour alter i took another 100 mgs.
call me a pussy if you want, but i love methylphenidate. concerta got me tweaked off my ass for hours. it kept coming back in waves due the whole abuse proof extended release thing. yeah so i was jsut chillen in my comp room, glad to be home and not wandering around my home town like a fucking bum anymore. i was so tweaked. like i mentioned eariler, im not big into uppers and i can never be cool on them and i can never handle the comedown either. it was about 130 am and my mom comes into the comp room. of course the first thing she says is " jeff what the hell is wrong with you you look like your on speed!" she got very upset and i told her that i didnt feel well. she always knows whenever im on any kind of upper, when i do adderall im really a fucking disaster. this shit was getting intense, my mom made me get off the computer and told me to go to sleep becuase it was late. so i crawled into bed. i was missing my one prized possesion. my ipod, so i wandered around the house looking for my ipod, and finalyl i found it. sweet jesus i was happy to see this thing, any entertainment would be sweet right now. before my mom kicked me off i was having the best time ever, listening to techno and talking to my freinds. i wish i couldve stayed on the comp, i was posting shit everywhere all over bluelight and myspace. i was talking to 5 people at once about all different shit. i love methylphenidate. alright so i forgot to mentiont hat i took all that concerta at about eight oclock am, just parachuted it. usually when i do ritalin is the IR kind and i snort it. i was suprised that i wasnt crashing yet, but i could feel the horrid paranoia coming on. so i remmeberd that i had some valerian root capesules and i saved them for later on when i really started to feel like shit. yeah idk im really not good at uppers, i love them but i can never handle the comedown or act reltivaley normal on them. i think its becuase im a chilled out guy, and im always really quiet so its obvious when my eyes are bulging out of my head and im talking really fast. alright so i pretty much just chilled in my bed the whole fucking night 130- till now jesus christ. i can still feel this shit. the valerian root hardly helped the comedown, i had some of the worst paranoia ever becuase my mom was on to me. every noise i heard i thought it was my mom coming in my room to see if i was awake, and i would pause my music about every 5 seconds due to the extreme amount of paranoia.
well i was thinking all night becuase i had nothing else to do, and i realized that im in love with lauren. the next day i asked her out and she said yes. this really made me happy. haha this isnt the first time ritalin has made me fall in love.
alright so i realized how fucked i was that i was g unna be all crashed out at school so i told my mom i had strep throat from making out with a girl who had it. she immedaitly questioned me once again asking me if i was on speed the night before, (i was up all night just laying my bed planning what to say) and i had to do some seriously hooky playing to convince her to let me stay home. shes so suspicious of me fromt his weekend, and she has the right to be.
alright so here i am, home alone faking sick smoking ciggarettes. this was a pretty crazy weekend, sorry for the long write like i said once again i can still feel the methyl a little bit sorry for the ramble and how confusing this essay is. well anyway thanks for reading it, over all this weekend actually changed my personality completely and im a much happier person now. maybe its still the concerta in my system, or maybe i actually successfully self medicated.
haha peace out fellow blers.
i would see them more than once throughout the whole night, i wondered what these strange creatures were. i realized that they were animals, and i wondered wtf they were doing in a house. i thought about how humans use animals to spot things that they cant, real primative thinking. haha
well anway, calt had to leave at about 12 oclock when iw as jsut peaking iw as upset to see him leave and i gave hima firm hand shake. i felt like i was never going to see him again for some reason. nothing really interesting happend the rest of the night, my friend passed out and i was tripping with all his fuckin pets. just looking at another life form was mind boggleing.
alright so let me get this story going, sorry its a long drug binge alot happened. haha next thing i know its morning, and kac is rolling a fattie. we went outside in the woods and smoked it , of course i was on the dex after glow so smoking anything was fucking incredable. so we just chilled around the house, and then kac todl me about how i had to leave at 11 becuase he was going to a skatepark. i dont skate board so i didnt wanna go anyway.
i was so fu cked up still i didnt wanna go home to my mom so i called up calt he siad he would be over to chill.
BUT there was a problem and he couldnt get a ride from anyone. so kac told me to walk down to the karate place where my freind(quint) was doing his thing. he told me to wait there and then maybe his dad could givem ea ride to mikes house. this was very confusing while this high and kind of tripping on the dex still.
i forgot to mention that kacs mom is perscibed klonopin. i was very excited to find 2 b ottles of this stuff in his computer room, so i secretly jacked 2 mgs of it. i took it instantly. this was a dumb idea becuase i would just be wondering around town, still tripping, stoned and now on kpins. well anyway when the kpins kicked in(of course its fast when you chew up them badboys.) we walked odwn the shoprite and kac was on his way to the skatepark. i was so fucked up to say the least at this point. so i walk down to karate, it was alot farther than i thought and i see my bud quint in there. i was happy to see him sinc ei dont have a cell phone. so i was chillen in front of the karate place, and thanks to fucking downers i pass out right in the front of the karate store while listenign to smashing pumpkins, i tripped tot hem the last night and found a new love for this band. they are so good on any drug. so anyway when i woke up, i didnt have any idea what the fuck was going on i woek up fucking so far away from kacs house. and i look int he karate store and its closed. oh fuck i thought. now im stranded in town with no ride to anywhere, too fucked up to even put a sentence together to ask the karate manager if he knew where quint was at.
so i wlaked up to the shoprite AGAIN iw as so tired. i didnt see quitn anywhere iw as hoping he would just be skating in front of the shoprite or some shit, but nobdoy was around at all.
so i walk down the karate place AGAIN and theres nobdoy there still. i was very confused and it felt liek my mind was fried. well anyway i ran into some kids who i didnt even know, (note that i looked so fucked up). i manage to ask this kid if i can use his cell phone. he said that i could only if i didnt steal it. you could tell he knew i was a scumbag. hahah
well anyway i call mike and he says that he cant get a ride to anywhere, and that quint is grounded and he cant go anywhere. yeah i know haha i got dicked over just becuase i blacked out on kpins. so, me being int he right state of mind to do anything i walk into the shoprite and jack another bottle of zicam nite. i think one of the employees saw me or soemthing, but everybody was watching me. well anyway, i got the fuck out of there feeling stupid for shoplifting again. i sat outside on a bench in front of the store like a fuckin bum. as my friend kac calls it "shad-o-meter" is very high on my part. i am carrying a backpack this whole time, and smoking cigs every chance i get. i got a shitload of dirty looks, but who gives a shit thats the great part about downers.
okay so now i see the kid with the cell phone again, ask him to use it again and he agrees. i was being so nice to these little douchebags who were being so annoying, they wanted to hang out with me and i luckily had the sense to say no becuase i had to get home, i had to get some godamn sleep finally. well my mom didnt answer her phone either, at this point i seriously thought the whole world was against me. i left her a message, and luckily about an hour later she showeed up. it was so funny, i felt like i was in forest fucking gump sitting on that bench, me beign all retarded ond rugs and people were talking to me saying shit like "what a nice day huh". just random ass people, i thought this was really creepy. i coudl still feel the dex and the kpins were still running strong, plus i was getting to be burnt the fuck out at about this time. so i get int he car with my mom, the first thing she says is something like "why are you just hanging out in front of shoprite?" "are you okay you look like your high!!!". you know the usual shit i get from my mom when im too high. i denied it and she accepted it i guess. we drove home, and i immedatly just pass out in my bed. finally i am fucking home at last. when i wake up, its 8 oclock pm.
god i love downers, my first instinct was to trip on dxm again for w/e reason. i still had two bottles of zicam, both put together was 1040 mgs. this was a very high dose for me. too h igh i would find out.i waited until my mom finalyl went to sleep at like 10 oclock.i downed both bottles, and chilled for a while when ic ame up. i didnt know if it was safe or not so i asked BL. all of a sudden i was on the high 3rd plateau. i was in the dxm land. it was different though, felt almost like opiates for a short amount of time. i think this was from the kpins from earlier. i was talking to my freinds on aim, or at least trying too. i couldnt reconize words, letters numbers, it was like i was incapable of thinking even.... well so i lay down in my bed, i cant remember ANYTHING from beyond this point.
i blacked out. i was on the 4th plateau dreaming. i cannot remmeber a single thing. i know i was on 4th becuase i cant remember shit, and i was incapable of moving. still i remmebr that it was very enjoyable, even though i knew how bad this combo was for me, especially a high dose of dxm two nights in a row.
when i got out of what whatever the fuck i was in, i definatly was on fourth for way too long. i guess the dxm that was still in my system greatly boosted the trip. so i wake up(or w.e you want to call it) im not sure if i was actually asleep(doubt it) or the amount of stress on my body from doing too many drugs just made me forget everything that happend. but im pretty sure that was just the gram of dxm.
now i do not rmember puking at all, but my garbage can was filled with it. godamn downers once again. let me just say that i probably wouldnt of tripped two nights in a row or even taken such a high dose of dex for me if i wasnt on downers. it was a weird ass weekend so far to say the least. but there was still
my huge concerta binge to add to the weekend.
alright so let me finish this long fuckin essay up here, thanks for reading it. so my mom takes me to her freinds house, and of course the first thing i look for in the house is drugs. i find theyre pill stash and what do you know theres a huge bottle of 54mg concerta. i took what i could get, i stole 5 of them i didnt have enough time to take anymore becuase my mom made me a play date with this kid graham. she was trying to get me to hang out with kids taht she knows dont do drugs. well first of all, let me just mention to you all that i am very very bad at handling any kind of upper. i know its only extended release methylphenidate but it had me fucking twackd out of my mind for the whole night. (this was last night but let me get back to more of the story LOl sorry for typing so much guys thanks once again for being interested in my story)
alright so this kid graham is a real ladies man he tells me call up some girls so we can hang out with them.i call up this little cutie luaren who is now my girlfreind. so we convinced grahams mom to drive us to brownes point, a park thats in my home town. so she drops us off at the a&p and once again im wandering around my home down on a dxm after glow. alright so anyway we met up with these two cuties and made out with them, nothing special but it made me happy. oh yeah and i forgot to mention how much a depressed teenager i am, but once i ddi that klonopin/dxm combination i was happy again. dxm really brightens up my life. i havent been just straight up happy since i moved to this town which i hate. well enough of my emo bitching. i bought some well deserved cigs at a gas station and i was suprised they sold it to me. i didnt even get carded haha. this is why i love jersey. alright so anyway grahams mom picks us both up,questions us about why we wreak like cigs. we talked our way out of it. let me just say that i talk my way out of way to many situations involving drugs. when i got home, i looked in the mirror. god fucking damnit i looked liek i was about to just drop dead. well, instead of leaving it at that and just going to bed (i had school the next day.) i remmeberd the 270 mgs of concerta i had in my pocket. i crudly crushed them up (jesus these things are a such a pain in the ass).
so i took 170 mgs at first, and then about an hour alter i took another 100 mgs.
call me a pussy if you want, but i love methylphenidate. concerta got me tweaked off my ass for hours. it kept coming back in waves due the whole abuse proof extended release thing. yeah so i was jsut chillen in my comp room, glad to be home and not wandering around my home town like a fucking bum anymore. i was so tweaked. like i mentioned eariler, im not big into uppers and i can never be cool on them and i can never handle the comedown either. it was about 130 am and my mom comes into the comp room. of course the first thing she says is " jeff what the hell is wrong with you you look like your on speed!" she got very upset and i told her that i didnt feel well. she always knows whenever im on any kind of upper, when i do adderall im really a fucking disaster. this shit was getting intense, my mom made me get off the computer and told me to go to sleep becuase it was late. so i crawled into bed. i was missing my one prized possesion. my ipod, so i wandered around the house looking for my ipod, and finalyl i found it. sweet jesus i was happy to see this thing, any entertainment would be sweet right now. before my mom kicked me off i was having the best time ever, listening to techno and talking to my freinds. i wish i couldve stayed on the comp, i was posting shit everywhere all over bluelight and myspace. i was talking to 5 people at once about all different shit. i love methylphenidate. alright so i forgot to mentiont hat i took all that concerta at about eight oclock am, just parachuted it. usually when i do ritalin is the IR kind and i snort it. i was suprised that i wasnt crashing yet, but i could feel the horrid paranoia coming on. so i remmeberd that i had some valerian root capesules and i saved them for later on when i really started to feel like shit. yeah idk im really not good at uppers, i love them but i can never handle the comedown or act reltivaley normal on them. i think its becuase im a chilled out guy, and im always really quiet so its obvious when my eyes are bulging out of my head and im talking really fast. alright so i pretty much just chilled in my bed the whole fucking night 130- till now jesus christ. i can still feel this shit. the valerian root hardly helped the comedown, i had some of the worst paranoia ever becuase my mom was on to me. every noise i heard i thought it was my mom coming in my room to see if i was awake, and i would pause my music about every 5 seconds due to the extreme amount of paranoia.
well i was thinking all night becuase i had nothing else to do, and i realized that im in love with lauren. the next day i asked her out and she said yes. this really made me happy. haha this isnt the first time ritalin has made me fall in love.
alright so i realized how fucked i was that i was g unna be all crashed out at school so i told my mom i had strep throat from making out with a girl who had it. she immedaitly questioned me once again asking me if i was on speed the night before, (i was up all night just laying my bed planning what to say) and i had to do some seriously hooky playing to convince her to let me stay home. shes so suspicious of me fromt his weekend, and she has the right to be.
alright so here i am, home alone faking sick smoking ciggarettes. this was a pretty crazy weekend, sorry for the long write like i said once again i can still feel the methyl a little bit sorry for the ramble and how confusing this essay is. well anyway thanks for reading it, over all this weekend actually changed my personality completely and im a much happier person now. maybe its still the concerta in my system, or maybe i actually successfully self medicated.
haha peace out fellow blers.