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Ecstasy : Everything begins with an E

GlasgowE — Fri, 20 Nov 2009 23:14:55 GMT

Ecstasy

The most wonderful, special, and truly life changing drug I have ever experienced in my short 23 years of life. I think it began in 2003/2004, cant remember to be exact. Possibly one of the lasting affects Ecstasy has made upon my life is simply that; I cant remember much of the period. When it started? When it got too much? When people I met changed/disappeared? When my perception of the world changed for good? All things I struggle to remember, put a date to. But why do we need a date for something so real; a feeling which extends beyond the time bound routine of daily life.

The small,pink heart shaped pill of 120 mg MDMA was consumed in a local club. It played mostly indie/electro type music. Full of familiar faces every weekend. A tribal sort of people satisfied with their limited rejection of mainstream music, but also content with their proximity to the comfort of conformity. The onset of the drug was at first rejected and I suppose the apprehension about what I was doing battled against the serotonin flooding my brain. A natural reaction to something synthetic and entirely new to a naive young boy. Yes, looking back I was only a boy, na�ve, scared even? Something I would never have admitted to at the time.

The drug soon swamped me, I was caught, wrapped up in a bubble of euphoria rolling around in a existence I had never previously known. It was for me though, that I knew. In that first hour of magic Ecstasy was the drug I needed in my life. It exposed everything; the lies, the hypocrisy, the love. It felt like a screen had been lifted; I could see everything I had already known but now it was clear and right in front of me. For each and every person this will mean something different and I wont get dragged down in the detail of it; for it is as I say unique to every person. I suppose that is something I have always advocated about the drug in many respects; its idiosyncratic nature. A very simple fact overlooked by many.

The water, the dancing, the chewing gum, the smoking, the new people, the parties, the comedown. All simple things in life which suddenly had a new meaning for me. The E in �Extra� chewing gum soon became a group joke. Like it had some special esoteric meaning of a higher order only known to a special few. In reality E is one of twenty six letters in the alphabet; in fact a vowel, and common in everyday words. But it's this kind of thinking which characterised my special relationship with the drug. I soon developed a confident attitude which at first I attempted to impose on people. Preaching here there and everywhere about what I thought. My opinions on religion and its hollowness, the middle class bourgeoisie existence my family had hoped I would achieve all seemed so fake, unreal and far away from who I was as an individual. I suppose looking back I was arrogant and self righteous, but for this I hold no shame. I battled with the idea; am I arrogant in thinking I can see beyond the hopeless emptiness of it all. No,Its how I think, how I see things, and this is a fundamental and lasting legacy of Ecstasy for me. Its had its problems as well as positives. For I can only too fondly remember the sudden interest I had from the fairer sex. My outspoken and supposed �interesting� attitude caused some attention from the girles; attractive ones at that. And I think this is when my first tragedy with Ecstasy came about. I liked the girl and she continually mentioned my �interesting� character, I choose to use quotations here to highlight my uncomfortableness with the word. But as soon as she discovered my �interesting� persona had roots in what she felt was a totally abhorrent and dangerous thing to do she bad mouthed me and made our little group secret public. That attitude sticks with me today for I will never forget the utter shock and disgust at doing something which had suddenly had become a very large and fundametal part of my life. The end of the short relationship didnt have as much an affect on me as the endless number of fools who suddenly took an interest in preaching to me the governement led drug propoganda they had been conditioned to belive in high school. I suppose this goes back to the development of my arrogant self and increasing distance between myself and family at the time. Largely as a result of trying to hide my special relationship with Ecstasy. For I had very little time for family, it truly was a time for pursuit of the individual; a thought I sometimes got confused over considering there was a huge sense of togetherness between myself and close knit group of friends. I think within this small experience lies a history, for it was only 20 years previously Ecstasy had hit britain at a time of ruthless Thatcherism where the individual was number one and a sub culture of acid house and togetherness battled it out in fields. Unlike any riot or social unrest seen previously it occurred in fields miles from anywhere.

To be continued,,,,,,,,,,,,,, increasingly unable to see the screen.

Ecstasy : Everything starts with an E

GlasgowE — Fri, 20 Nov 2009 23:12:13 GMT

Pyschedelic English Paper

piku_playground — Fri, 20 Nov 2009 23:02:46 GMT

I am needing to write a Toulmin-style proposal paper for ENG 102. I'd like to choose something interesting to me, pertaining to psychedelics. I have written a paper about psychedelic psychotherapy, and I found it very challenging as it required a lot of knowledge about psychology, therapy, mental illnesses and in the psychedelic realm: the many types of drugs used, the techniques, legality issues, etc etc. I'd rather specify more on this paper.

So if anyone has any interesting ideas about using psychedelics to solve a specific social issue, please feel free to share. I'm not looking for anything outrageous like having psychedelic classes in high school, public DMT demonstrations or something like that. :) I'm looking for something that is fairly realistic that could possibly be implemented in the near future.

It needs to be an actual social issue that is generally agreed upon as a problem, and then have a proposal for its solution.

Whether or not I use any of the ideas, I am looking for some inspiration from experienced psychonauts. I am especially interested in using psychedelics as a way to connect people back to this planet and thus increase their concern for its welfare.

Thanks for any help!! <3

Too much diazepam?

GuidedByVoices — Fri, 20 Nov 2009 22:47:01 GMT

I've been taking diazepam for about 2 years now for occasional anxiety. I started off taking 10mg at a time and it worked fine. Now I take it 3-4 times a week but when I do I take 40-50mg at a time. I don't get high or tired or anything it just works to stop the anxiety like it did when I was taking 10mg when I first started taking it. Is it bad that my tolerance has increased so much and is 40-50mg at a time too much? I am a pretty big guy, around 220 pounds so my tolerance for most medication is higher but still...

Thanks

Anyone Smoke Up With Their Parents?

BrutalRollar — Fri, 20 Nov 2009 22:22:50 GMT

After about 5 years of smoking weed,I noticed mostly all my friends weren't aloud to smoke up,(or their parents didn't know they smoked up) but as for me I was always aloud to get high, I never hid it from my mom I told her on my own when I was 13, she didn't mind cuz she did the same age as me, and to this day we still smoke up together, (most the time she's smoking me up). But back to the question do any of you smoke up with your parents? If so how often? Most people find it awkward to smoke up with their parents but I find it the same as smoking with my friends, my moms awesome =D

Talk to yourself v. My turky goes gobblegobblegobble~ >:>

D's — Fri, 20 Nov 2009 22:12:54 GMT

discus the sounds of turkys!

Anyone listin to grindcore/deathcore?

BrutalRollar — Fri, 20 Nov 2009 22:08:48 GMT

Well I noticed most people on bl listin to trance,hip hop(which I hate), and rock. But does anyone here listin to grindcore,metalcore,deathcore, brutal stuff like that. Name a few bands?

Two out of three...

Rifkala — Fri, 20 Nov 2009 21:49:18 GMT

of my last times dipping molly were really odd. two times, about an hour in, i would start coughing. it was an unusually cough, coming from deep in my chest and it both simultaneously suppressed and heightened my nausea. after about ten minutes of coughing, i'd walk to the bathroom and cough until i threw up. it was never anything more than water or bile, but after i threw up i felt absolutely fine and continued with my evening.

now, this has happened twice with one roll, in between, where i didn't have to throw up. this is also a relatively new issue, happening only once about four months ago.

any speculations, personal experiences, etc?

Damien

tathra — Fri, 20 Nov 2009 21:36:27 GMT

DamienDamienDamien

American Stoners?

she phoenix — Fri, 20 Nov 2009 21:27:45 GMT

Today I decided I would love to go to the USA on my own some day, and find a bunch of people to hang out with and have a laugh, a smoke and maybe a little roll :D
Where do you like to smoke, and if you were out with your pals and about and a vacant British hippie wandered up to you (because she caught a whiff) would you hang out with her and show her what it's like to be a pot lover in the US?
Random question I know, but... well... there you go...
<3

Guidelines Push Back Age for Cervical Cancer Tests

FuturePig — Fri, 20 Nov 2009 21:19:10 GMT

Thought this might receive better reception in here than in CE&P.

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New guidelines for cervical cancer screening say women should delay their first Pap test until age 21, and be screened less often than recommended in the past.

The advice, from the American College of Obstetricians and Gynecologists, is meant to decrease unnecessary testing and potentially harmful treatment, particularly in teenagers and young women. The group�s previous guidelines had recommended yearly testing for young women, starting within three years of their first sexual intercourse, but no later than age 21.

Arriving on the heels of hotly disputed guidelines calling for less use of mammography, the new recommendations might seem like part of a larger plan to slash cancer screening for women. But the timing was coincidental, said Dr. Cheryl B. Iglesia, the chairwoman of a panel in the obstetricians� group that developed the Pap smear guidelines. The group updates its advice regularly based on new medical information, and Dr. Iglesia said the latest recommendations had been in the works for several years, �long before the Obama health plan came into existence.�

She called the timing crazy, uncanny and �an unfortunate perfect storm,� adding, �There�s no political agenda with regard to these recommendations.�

Dr. Iglesia said the argument for changing Pap screening was more compelling than that for cutting back on mammography � which the obstetricians� group has staunchly opposed � because there is more potential for harm from the overuse of Pap tests. The reason is that young women are especially prone to develop abnormalities in the cervix that appear to be precancerous, but that will go away if left alone. But when Pap tests find the growths, doctors often remove them, with procedures that can injure the cervix and lead to problems later when a woman becomes pregnant, including premature birth and an increased risk of needing a Caesarean.

Still, the new recommendations for Pap tests are likely to feed a political debate in Washington over health care overhaul proposals. The mammogram advice led some Republicans to predict that such recommendations would lead to rationing.

Senator Tom Coburn, a Republican from Oklahoma who is also a physician, said in an interview that he would continue to offer Pap smears to sexually active young women. Democratic proposals to involve the government more deeply in the nation�s health care system, he said, would lead the new mammography, Pap smear and other guidelines to be adopted without regard to patient differences, hurting many people.

�These are going to be set in stone,� Mr. Coburn said.

Senator Arlen Specter, a Pennsylvania Democrat and longtime advocate for cancer screening, said in an interview: �And this Pap smear guideline is yet another cut back in screening? That is curious.� Mr. Specter, who was treated for Hodgkin�s lymphoma in 2005 and 2008, said Congress was committed to increasing cancer screenings, not limiting them.

Representative Rosa DeLauro, Democrat of Connecticut, said that the new guidelines would have no effect on federal policy and that �Republicans are using these new recommendations as a distraction.�

�Making such arguments, especially at this critical point in the debate, merely clouds the very simple issue that our health reform bill would increase access to care for millions of women across the country,� she said.

There are 11,270 new cases of cervical cancer and 4,070 deaths per year in the United States. One to 2 cases occur per 1,000,000 girls ages 15 to 19 � a low incidence that convinces many doctors that it is safe to wait until 21 to screen.

The doctors� group also felt it was safe to test women less often because cervical cancer grows slowly, so there is time to catch precancerous growths. Cervical cancer is caused by a sexually transmitted virus, human papillomavirus, or HPV, that is practically ubiquitous. Only some people who are exposed to it develop cancer; in most, the immune system fights off the virus. If cancer does develop, it can take 10 to 20 years after exposure to the virus.

The new guidelines say women 30 and older who have three consecutive Pap tests that were normal, and who have no history of seriously abnormal findings, can stretch the interval between screenings to three years.

In addition, women who have a total hysterectomy (which removes the uterus and cervix) for a noncancerous condition, and who had no severe abnormalities on previous Pap tests, can quit having the tests entirely.

The guidelines also say that women can stop having Pap tests between 65 and 70 if they have three or more negative tests in a row and no abnormal test results in the last 10 years.

The changes do not apply to women with certain health problems that could make them more prone to aggressive cervical cancer, including H.I.V. infection or having an organ transplant or other condition that would lead to a suppressed immune system.

It is by no means clear that doctors or patients will follow the new guidelines. Medical groups, including the American Cancer Society, have been suggesting for years that women with repeated normal Pap tests could begin to have the test less frequently, but many have gone on to have them year after year anyway.

Debbie Saslow, director of breast and gynecologic cancer for the American Cancer Society, said professional groups were particularly concerned because many teenagers and young women were being tested and then needlessly subjected to invasive procedures.

In addition, Dr. Saslow said, doctors in this country have been performing 15 million Pap tests a year to look for cervical cancer in women who have no cervix, because they have had hysterectomies.

Dr. Carol L. Brown, a gynecologic oncologist and surgeon at Memorial Sloan-Kettering Cancer Center, said the new guidelines should probably not be applied to all women, because there are some girls who begin having sex at 12 or 13 and may be prone to develop cervical cancer at an early age.

�I�m concerned that whenever you send a message out to the public to do less, the most vulnerable people at highest risk might take the message and not get screened at all,� Dr. Brown said.

Dr. Kevin M. Holcomb, an associate professor of clinical obstetrics and gynecology at NewYork-Presbyterian/Weill Cornell hospital, said that when he heard the advice to delay Pap testing until 21, �My emotional response is �Wow, that seems dangerous,� and yet I know the chances of an adolescent getting cervical cancer are really low.�

As with the new mammogram recommendations, women may not readily give up a yearly cancer test.

�For people who�ve been having the testing regularly every year, it�s a big emotional change to test less frequently and there�s this fear of �Oh my gosh, I might be missing something,� � said Ivy Guetta, 49, of Westport, Conn., who plans to continue with annual Pap tests. Ms. Guetta has three daughters, ages 17, 14 and 8, and at the moment, she would not encourage them to wait until they turn 21.

Jen Jemison, 24, a legal assistant from Babylon, N.Y., said she thought she began getting Pap smears when she was about 18, but said that if she had been aware that the procedure for treating precancerous lesions could lead to premature births, she would have waited until she turned 21.

On the other hand, Ms. Jemison said that now that she is over 21, �I would still go every year� for the Pap test.

�One of my cousins had cervical cancer, so that�s in my head too,� she said. �I�d rather get it checked out regularly than have to worry about that.�

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This is strange. Why would they stop screening for women under 21? There aren't any risks associated with screening and to me, it would only help to establish a more thorough medical history.

The risks involved, like an incompetent cervix, are associated with the invasive procedures to remove pre-cancerous lesions - why wouldn't they change guidelines to suggest such procedures to women over a certain age instead of foregoing the screening process altogether in younger women?

Pacha NYC presents The Return of DAVID GUETTA - 11.27

plexipr — Fri, 20 Nov 2009 21:15:55 GMT

Pacha NYC presents the return of International DJ/Producer David Guetta for a special Thanksgiving weekend extravaganza on Friday, November 27th, 2009. On the heels of Guetta�s new critically acclaimed album �One Love� (Astralwerks), Guetta continues to conquer America with his most extensive U.S. tour to date and a triumphant return to NYC to recapture the dancefloor magic.

�I can�t wait to tour in America,� said Guetta. �I played at the Electric Daisy Carnival in LA and Electric Zoo in NYC this summer and the crowd�s energy was amazing. There is a real dance culture happening in America right now that I find very exciting.�

David Guetta has been on a hot streak since early summer, having produced the Black Eyed Peas record-breaking �I Gotta Feeling� along with the global success of �One Love�s� summer anthem �When Love Takes Over� featuring Kelly Rowland and new monster hit �Sexy Bitch� featuring Akon. �One Love� has hit #1 across Europe and entered the U.S. iTunes album chart at #12. Guetta was recently named the European ambassador and spokesperson for DJ Hero, further solidifying his stature as one of the world�s biggest DJ�s. This hotly anticipated game on Activision is out now and features 3 �One Love� tracks � �Sexy Bitch,� �When Love Takes Over� and �On the Dancefloor� - in an exclusive download package format.

Guetta released �One Love,� a non-stop, party-thumping musical hybrid of dance beats and hip-hop/R&B vocals to rave reviews in August 2009 to rave reviews. People Magazine called �One Love� �a party-rocking album� and the Associated Press agreed, �Guetta�s CD is one big party.� The album features vocals from some of music�s biggest names that includes Akon, apl de ap, Estelle, Kid Cudi, Ne-Yo, Novel, Kelly Rowland, Will.I.Am and Chris Willis.

Guetta continues to reach new heights in America. �When Love Takes Over� hit the #1 spot on the Billboard dance chart, reached #28 on the Top 40 airplay chart and #76 on the Billboard Hot 100. The second single �Sexy Bitch� is currently #1 of the Billboard dance chart, #35 on the Top 40 radio airplay chart, #23 on the Rhythmic radio airplay chart, #34 on the Billboard Hot 100 and climbing at a rapid pace. To date, it has sold nearly 400,000 digital downloads and is currently #21 on the singles chart. The Guetta produced Black Eyed Peas single �I Gotta Feeling� is undoubtedly one of the biggest songs of the year, making the Black Eyed Peas the longest running artist to sit at #1 on the Billboard Hot 100.

Guetta shows no signs of slowing down with the announcement of his U.S. 'One Love' tour. Be on the lookout for the video for his 3rd single �One Love� featuring Grammy� award winner Estelle, another song sure to take over dance floors and radio airwaves around the world.

Check out the mini-site for videos, Sexy Bitch Soundboard, tickets, music and more:
www.pachanyc.com/guetta/

Friday, November 27, 2009
Pacha NYC presents

David Guetta

Pacha NYC
618 West 46th Street
New York City
Doors at 10pm/19+ w/ valid i.d.
$35 Advance Tickets while supplies last @ www.pachanyc.com
Info & Table Reservations 212.209.7500

www.pachanyc.com
www.pachanyc.com/guetta/
www.davidguetta.com

Pacha NYC Upcoming Dates
November 20 Christopher Lawrence & Ronski Speed
November 21 Victor Calderone with Behrouz: Evolve
November 25 Danny Tenaglia � Thanksgiving Eve 2009
November 25 Deadmau5 @ Terminal 5 - Pacha On Tour
November 27 David Guetta Returns To NYC
November 28 Jonathan Peters
December 04 Funkagenda & Exacta
December 11 Mauro Picotto
December 12 Erick Morillo & Steve Angello - Pacha 4 Year Anniversary
December 13 Frankie Knuckles & Danny Krivit
December 18 Fedde Le Grand
December 31 Pacha New Years 2010 � Victor Calderone, Paco Osuna, Richie Santana, Peter Bailey

IV 2mg dilaudid

king bee — Fri, 20 Nov 2009 21:14:14 GMT

how many 2mg pills do you think i can dissolve in 1mL? 4-5 of them is a LOT of powder, and all i can get is 1mL syringes. it seems like when im dissolving the 3rd one (6mg), the water turns to milk, and is opaque white. i think anything after that and ill be dealing with white mud. now, this is a issue, because thats the most ive been comfortable with adding to the solution, and its not enough for my desired dose. at times in the past, i was able to obtain 8mg pills, and learned of my desired dose for 'a rush' to be about 12-16mg.

is there anyway to achieve a 10mg+ dose in 1mL or less of water with 2mg pills? they are the M2 ones..

The Winter Depreciation Thread

China Rider — Fri, 20 Nov 2009 21:08:19 GMT

ITT: We hate on winter.

cutting advice

nordic_aloha — Fri, 20 Nov 2009 21:04:06 GMT

I have been training for almost three years now. I have ran a superdrol clone by its self in the past called masterdrol, with nolva as pct. The results were ok but I am trying to keep my AAS usage to a minimum. I have been making pretty consistent gains over the last couple years. My diet has been a little inconsistent at times and dirty occasionally as well. I have always made it my goal to nothing but gaining muscle, therefore I have not put too much emphasis on making my diet super clean, although I do stick to a better diet than most. Well, I started off at 215lbs 2 years ago, I now weigh in at 275lbs. I am 6'3" and a lot of my gains have been muscle, I have a pretty solid, strong physique, but my bodyfat is starting to really poke through as well. So, I am just looking for advice on how to cut down the bodyfat naturally without losing muscle. I am not going to be taking any stimulants or AAS unless they are over the counter, so that is out of the question I am on probation. What I do want to know is how I should change my workout scheme and diet. I currently lift 3-4 days a week. I do the simple arms & chest, back & shoulders, and legs routine. MY reps are usually broken down where i do 4 sets using a 12-10-8-6 respittion technique, adding weight each time. Some of my exercises are different, but this is the general routine I do. I was wondering if I should be changing the repititions or sets. Also, for my diet I hear that when you cut, you must eat more protien than ever and cut down on carbs by only eating nothing but complex carbs, is there anything else I should know? Thanks for any help guys, my weight is getting a little bit out of hand and my blood pressure has gone up !